I am specialized in various skills
I am specialized in languages such as English, 3D computer animation, writing, and using word processors and Adobe PageMaker.
"I have the ability to speak several languages, such as Arabic, English, and Japanese, and I can write these languages as well."
I know things about the film industry, 3D modeling, fiction, Greek philosophy, mechanics, transport and networking networks, and current affairs around the globe. "I am competent at 3D design using Blender, analyzing literary elements and terms, using the computer to solve daily life scenarios such as using Excel to prepare budgets, and using analytical skills to deduce the intentions of a speaker.
"One part of my personality is that I am an introvert and reserved. I do interact with people at a minimal level and when necessary."
External View of Skills
Other people believe that I am skilled in medical matters, engineering, physics, board games, interpersonal communication, and Information Technology-related matters.
One part of my personality is that other people believe I am conservative and selfish. This is owing to the fact that they have not bothered to find out the real me since I do not let them in. The best they can deduce is the mystery.
Analysis
From the above list, I have come to understand myself a bit better. For example, I have come to learn that I am an introvert due to the fact that I have observed it and people around me have confirmed that they see me as such. Most of the people around me indicate that I can be a bit slow to air my grievances. I recognize that I avoid contact with people most of the time but it is not a consequence of malice or hatred.
I have also learned that I am controversial since several people find it hard to pinpoint my personality and as such, they give the closest match they can find. They assume that my intentions are not the best and thus avoid relating to me. However, this is mainly because they do not understand that I have not fully been able to recognize that my actions have an effect on the people around me.
Last but not least, I have found that I am an academic, which is confirmed by the list, which shows largely academic skills and the list of what people think of me, which shows an inclination towards academia. I love studying and integrating knowledge. Most of the time, you will find me in the library trying to determine ways by which some of the problems facing humanity can be solved.
Mostly, I read scientific fictions as well as novels to relax my head on days when the schedule is strenuous. The inclinations in my list are the 3D skills, language and literary skills while the people's list shows doctor, engineer, and strategist, which are largely academic skills. I would be very happy if I succeeded in these professions. I will use my skills to ease the processes of creation and production.
I am fascinated by Greek mythology and literary explorations given that they encourage me to explore the limits of my imagination. I often picture myself being a part of the escapades that gods such as Zeus were a part of. From such initiatives, I am increasingly able to appreciate the role of diversity and history in shaping man's present economic, social, and political structures. From this initiative, I am able to appreciate the little differences that I notice among the people around me.
LOG
Day one
Incident where crude language was used: addressing a friend over a dog.
What I was doing there: having fun with my friends.
Who I was with: My roommate.
What I said: could you make this stupid dog go away!!!
Rationale for the choice of words: The words were intended to portray my dissatisfaction with the noisy dog.
Day two
Incident where crude language was used: addressing the landlord regarding the lack of hot water in the apartment.
What I was doing there: tenant.
Who I was with: No one.
What I said: (self-conversation) this old thing deserves to die.
Day Three
Incident where crude language was used: addressing the landlord over his preventing my friend from visiting me due to him smoking.
What I was doing there: tenant.
Who I was with: My friend.
What I said: have you the balls to act? Do whatever you may!!
My use of crude language is minimal, and the language itself is moderately pervasive.
There are no particular settings or people that I am more likely to swear in front of, partly due to my introvert nature.
The word I actually use often would be damn!
I use crude speech to express disappointment and disgust.
I am satisfied with the frequency with which I use vulgar language considering that I do so only when prompted and not as a casual endeavor. The reasons for using hate speech, on the other hand, are a bit flimsy and not fully justified; there is always the option of calming down and talking more calmly later. I recognize that if both of the involved parties assume a hostile countenance, the problem may not be solved.
My use of crude speech is almost nonexistent at the moment. The few instances that may occur, and rarely at that, are when I am having an internal conversation. This is owed to the maturity that has come as a result of the passage of time. I am calmer when engaging my peers. This allows me the time to structure my words efficiently before speaking them. I am, therefore, able to control the words that I speak.
Whereas in the past, I was easily flustered by statements that I did not understand, I am becoming increasingly open to the idea of acquainting myself with new phenomena. I am no longer as conservative as I used to be, and I feel that I have been able to mitigate the victim mentality that threatened to impede my initiatives. I recognize that people do not always aim to discredit me and thus I should not assume that this is their desire.
Most of the people that I had altercations with in the past still avoid me. For instance, my landlord does not like me much at the moment, but that is because I have not shown him that I have changed. Should he meet my new self, I am sure he would like me, and we would interact even more. I try to solicit his counsel whenever there is a problem in the house. It is my hope that this will bring us closer.
Lastly, I have come to understand that I fear crowded places. Given the discomfort that I feel in such settings, I no longer wish to stay in places where there are large groups of people. This has allowed me to avoid profanity which often results from feelings of discomfort and inadequacy. I now walk in a group of a few friends who understand me and constantly wish to see the best in me. The confidence they have in me challenges me to be a better man.
